The Tide comes in and rushes back Out

The formations of the rocks, the cave with an opening to the ocean .  The ocean to me is the most beautiful place on earth.  Then why on earth am I here in the desert Nevada and before that Arizona.  The love of our children and the need to be near them, that is the reason, for leaving the beautiful and awesome Brookings Oregon, also known as the Sunbelt of the Coast.

Well here we are semi retired, still an RN with longings to still be doing bedside nursing.  So doing nothing for now. With terrible pain from Fibromyalgia , Arthritis and too many disc problems to count. And oh yes let us not forget about the osteoarthritis in the knees. So, you ask, Do I want a little cheese with my Whine.

So while I am looking for something to do to bring in money. I find that I have time to really work on this blog. Which has been a long time waiting for my inspiration. So as the tide comes in it definitely rushes back out just like my thoughts, wishes, dreams and inspirations.  I believe that is all for today, I will try to add my thoughts every few days then hopefully I will get the hang of it. Any opinions, lessons ect are welcome.

 

 

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Ocean Lighthouses

I love pictures of the Ocean and Lighthouses. Cannot seem to get enough of them. Just View my pinterest account and you will see what I am talking about. I started this blog some time ago and just couldn’t get into it. So since I am semi- retired there is no time like now to just jump in and see if I sink or swim.
I am an RN living in Nevada far from home. We moved out here to be closer to our children but I truly believe We saw them more when we lived in Arizona. I have mobile difficulties due to fibromyalgia and disc problems in neck and back so it is no longer an option to be a bedside nurse. It is really sad because what does a person do that has been a RN for over 25 years. On interviews they do not hire you because they think you are too old to keep up. So here I am trying to figure out what I should do now. Well Thanks for reading.

Magic

Magic is a wonder, a dream, an accomplishment.

I searched for my Dad for so many years since I was a child. Searched him in my dreams, other people oh was that him, no never to be found.

I wrote him letters never to be sent and I always wondered why he never came, why did he not look for me or send me a letter. I would have treasured it forever.

Then came the internet and Ancestry, the search was on and on and on. Years went by no Dad to be found. Even as an adult I continued to wonder why why why.

Then last week I decided to give it one last try. You see it was so hard to search and search and find so many that were not him.  So I gave this last attempt and there he was it was like magic true magic a dream come true.

There was his picture on my computer it was like he was looking back at me. I could see all of his features and it was like looking in a mirror. I cried cried and cried.

Those tears were for all the love I felt for him and all the regret fell away for all the years I had searched for him. Then I looked at his picture and said, “Why Why Why”